self image pt 2

I really dont want to make this an i hate mr handsome blog because i know my life doesn't revovle around him. but seriously. its about 3 am and the baby was crying you think this nigga got up. hell no.hes a fucking loser, he expects me to do everything around here. and he just get all the got damn sleep. In the mean time my bff is prego. so happy for her. but now shes callin herself mrs.brooks????she just met this dude. mea i think its great that she got somebody and all and he claims he wants totake care of her and hovs baby. lol I hope he does cuz aibt buffin worse then a nigga using your baby to get to sum pussy. I dont know why i find him suspect. it colud be the fact hes only 19 and shes about to be 22.I never known a 19 year old that u just met to want to take care of u and a ur bay bay. doea he have a brother

self image

O.k so yesterday me and mr.handsome(my bf even though he aint all that handsome) was talking and he grabs my after prego belly and says"wat are you going to do with dat.Omg I think I look so good compare to all the other women thats trying to loosed lbs in the double digits of pregnancy weight. I feel like sometimes he really thinks he desearve some model chick in the videos. Like dude Women dont always look like dat sorry. He treats me as if I have to be with him. its a treat to be with him.It made me mad.So mad and to add on to insult I ask him if we were going to be together I would like to have more. and hes all like no. I say if you won the lottery could we have more kids he said no. He said it aint the money. Then wat is it. Its so sad cuz I get so mad. I dont want to live my whole life wit this dude?!!!!!!!!!!!

still here

yeah this nigga is really trippin toDAY i made his skin crawl. yup dats what the hell he said to me.. Wen am i going to leave this sorry ass dude-i dont know. drama!! My daughter is getting bigger and bigger last thursday she weighed 6 lbs 12 oz. speaking of weight. i think i need to gain more. I feel so skinn last time i weighed 113 and this was right after i had the baby. goodness

long time no hear from

so Its been awhile. And yes I had the baby early. and guess wat so did my ex's whoa I'm not even going there. I mean but who did i piss off for both of my ex boos to have all of our babies in the same month. Going back to work is hard. As much as i would want to be posted in the house with my baby all day. I NEED MONEY. LOL seriously. The father of my child.Hes an asshole but wat else is new.Right now i'm so tired of talking about him. and seriously not looking towards my future with him. I mean my anger towards him grows everyday. In the past he has called me "garbarge"Told me he dont care about me. all types of indicator to leave his sorry ass. but i dont. At first it was for love but now its for sasha. I mean i feel like theres no love in this relationship. I think of him and I think I cant stand him. How dare he talk to shit to me and expect me to want to be with him physically. hell nah.. I've never known garbage to have sex so come up to me buddy. anywho. my "bestie" is having a baby. horray for her. I pray to goodness she will be better at maintaining a relationship wit her f-m then i'am cuz i suck.