we wish you a merry fucking christmas

In the mist of the holidays I have decided that i want to go back to school. that is the become a nurse. last time i was unsuccessful. and hopefully this time will work cuz home girl is tired of being on the couch on a cna salary. Other then that the holidays are not depressing. I'm use to ignoring them it comes natural. I didn't want to do anything big for the holidays. Sasha is only 3 months. And other then that I'm too broke to want to do anything. I'm going to take her to the doctor cuz she has been acting weird. coughing up mucus and sorts. It makes me nervous as hell. and u know who has to put their fucking two cents in it" "Pierre" I know we have a child together but when did that become a free for all to bash me. Everyday its something new. TONITE IT WAS "WELL YOU NOT FEEDING HER RIGHT" dawg back the fuck off. this whole time every time she cry,she sick she sick. now i really do think she is sick.I cant stand him. And that's not the worst of it. Two days ago he bring his 1 child over my house and just talks about our relationship problems in front of him. forces him to say that he loves. that little boy don't even know me. come on. I'm very piss. in a very pissy mood. I cant take it anymore.But as my friends would say i ain't going to leave . After being with him for this long and actually letting myself slipped up and get pregnant by him. I know I'm not going anywhere. I would have left a LONG time ago. like when he first came over my house high as fuck trippin talking about we goin be life partners. or better yet recently before i had the baby when he put his hands around my throat and slam me to the floor. NO I ain't going nowhere how pitiful is that